Wretched:

"Another, yes, another contrary matter had passed my life again. This afternoon was very cool and relaxing, spending time with my friends. While tonight was so bitter that made me wish, I did not went home. It was daringly soft and velvety, the reason that made me so unthinkably colloided. I made up my petty-dainty mind."

-an entry last Nov. 6

What a selfish bait that I made today? Early this morning I woke up to attend a pictorial at SM City together with my JA-mates and with our JA adviser. The start of the day was cool and nothing much to be bothered upon but as the hours passsed, things got a little bit strange. And here the story goes:

Clumsy as I always was, I jumped into a not-so-enthusiastic subject with a best friend of mine. Well, as I've said, the subject wasn't that interesting but if you put your heart in it, it is more interesting than watching planet Mars turn green. Our topic was about his crushy-crushy (please don't mind the spelling) that is a friend of him too. Yeah, I know you already got my point. The thing is: the girl he's crush'ed with is with a guy (who's older that us, three years approximately) who's deadly in love with he's crushy-crushy. To be frankly, it is a bit childish but what can I say it's love. I wonder how I will be able to help him as his best friend. And so by the end of the day that we were left alone, I asked him, for at that time, I wasn't still sure if he really does have a crush on that girl or maybe more. And guess what, with no doubt or second thoughts at all, he said yes. And so it was clear. All my doubts and guesses went correct. And I was glad that he told me that because as far as I could determine, I'm the only person who doesn't know about it (well, except for those who doesn't really care at all).

Browsing each moments of that day, I realized that all I did was to feel sorry for him (honestly, I don't want to pity people because of love but, what can I do? Tt's all that I can do for him-sympathy). But maybe comforting him would be better without saying, "Ok lang na sya" because those set of words we're very common but I still did. I kept on saying it to him, let me guess...1...2...3 times. Ugh! I wish I could do better. =( I'm really really disappointed but still happy for I knew that he still trusts me. God, I'm wearing off with those.