Her Imperfections

So how do I know such things?

It's such a difficult journey out there and if there's anything that could be a hindrance in that long way, it would perhaps be my own imperfections.

Whether it's the long way or the short way, it'll surely be the same. I don't really understand why my mood kept on changing these days and the way I make a theme to my writing is like getting somewhat erratic. And now here I' am writing about my own imperfections. It's funny and absolutely crazy. By the way, when did I ever stop writing about anything? From the skies above, the melancholic sound of the waves, the sweet chirping of the birds, and even the scene of two people staring at each other's eyes. Well, that's me and that's how I see writing. Writing is the most lucrative way of imploring to someone your thoughts in a way that is not too powerful and aggressive but in a mild ray of imagination that somewhat drives the persons to set his/her soul to the writer's world without his/her conscious about his/her transition.

So much about writing. Let's go to 'my' writing.

Each of us have our own insecurities and imperfections plus all the udeniably bad critiques of those people around us. It is a matter of fact our inseparable accessory being a human person. But guess what we can minimize it, right? The reading of the process will take few minutes but the application will take few years. Yes, isn't it ridiculous? Why do we have to wait if we can just cancel out these people in our lives, right? Tell me about it.

So here's the thing. First, who are these people that make you feel imperfect, insecure, and scrutinize you like your some Gossip Girl character. Find them and list in who's the first one you wanted to throw away first. Yes, in that way you'll have a fair listing.

Second, write the reasons (e.g. What have they done and said to hurt you?, Are they really worth of your time and of the ink in your pen?).

Third, after plotting them down, write the things that they've done or said [that you think they really did with all their hearts] that made you feel better. Try to be true with your judgments.

Fourth, try to look at your list. Is the person who've hurt you the most did something great that had made you happy at the same time? If that is so, try to skimmer down your anger and try to look back at the past when you've felt like he/she have betrayed you or have hurt you. See if there are flaws in your conclusion and perhaps, you've got it wrong. Try to do the same with the others in your list. Perhaps, some of them are not worth to be there.

Fifth, but if the people in your list is not likely to be what they are, then, guess, it's better that you take spaces away from them. It's difficult to live in a world where you can't at least be free with you want to think of yourself. It's just like throwing garbage away for recycling. If you don't feel like they can be good friends to you, throw them away, let them be. Perhaps, they could be recycled and be of good friends with other people. It's not like they're trash all in all but you just don't want to make your place smelly and have no comfy place for other people.

So that's it. Easy as it is but difficult to carry out. But it will just flow like faucet water draining you out to the dirty drainage and be reprocessed to a healthy drinking water. Good luck. have fun. And make sure to throw the right garbage in the right trashcan.